My Mother is Challenging   I tell my daughter that my mother is challenging. She said that’s being nice. My mother has hate where her heart used to be.   It is not something I want to talk about- But this I know: She does not have long in this world and She will go down screaming in rage.   In the quiet moments when she isn’t casually tossing insults disguised as love She has a look of jealous hatred in her eyes. It scares me to think what she would be capable of  if she wasn

I broke something today. My rage and grief and sadness started filling me up inside until I felt like I was gonna start screaming. So I went outside and I thought well, I'll get some fresh air and do some yardwork. After I was done blowing all the leaves away (did I mention it was late in the Fall?) I saw the pop up canopy that had been used all summer to cover the picnic table. In case anyone wanted to have a backyard picnic or hang out to escape the summer heat of the h